Hardest time of the year for Me and DDP

It seems everything has just came to an end with a very concrete decision made.
My both hands were shaking and it's just hard to type on the keypad ; mind was empty while I'm trying to draft this 2 weeks ago. Now,this is the fact and everything should come to a complete full stop. Perhaps I should take this as a nice full stop for DDP & The end of the blog I believed. I will miss this...always!!!



"Heart is just so heavy, I've no idea whether this will continue with part 2 or alive one day but as everyone said... things can happen and is already happened. No one will know what will happened and what's the arrangement we will never know. All the harsh words still fresh in mind and left with deep cuts.
Nothing much can be done other than move on and let it go... as times passes by...

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Last week of 2009, can't believed that the happiness which I had for 2 years plus gone as 09 saying goodbye. Had been fighting for the chance to solve the problem but things not working now still...Come to a blank page of my life which I had never experience before. Told myself to move on after the conversation with DDP. I thought I can and I am strong to handle myself, I believed. Without him, I feel weak it seems like the fairy tales story had come to an end and will be far away from me. Telling myself not to cry as I gonna be as strong as him if I were to follow the way he improve and perhaps his pace.

Believing in Fate? Yes, I used to believe this but now I don't know. He told that we can go so far and believe that fate arrange us together and he will never stop loving me or wanting me to worry. Promised me never leave me alone and will celebrate my birthday showering with his never ending love. Why is this happened to us and why this is just cruel to me. He can even told me that no turning back needed and he had let go 100% and move on.
Friends told me that he may have plan or switching attention to others that can light up the feeling of flame. Some even told me that you just entering to a colourful life and had tasted the new blood. I trust the one I know "you" are still you; may be I'm lying to myself, may be I'm just being naive the you now is not the one I have for the last 2 years.

Remember the last hug we had in front of the airport and that was the most heavy heart I ever had before. You promised me not think of this and we gonna be alright and will talk later but why again you broke your promise again. Along the way back from the airport, my mind keeps flipping with all the sweetest memories we had along the our relationship.

Started with a cup of Mocha>>> No Whipped under the big Green sign... We were then started the journey of sweetest and painful moments. Getting along together is the hardest thing for us and this is why I appreciated us. Singapore Trip... Bali Trip... Valentine Surprises 08, Birthday dinner arrangement, Home cooked romantic dinners, sudden appearances for 09 Valentine, most of the traveling trip and the most challenging trip for us Mount KK. Without you, I am sure I may not be able to make it... Thank you baby for all the encouragement and step by step!

It was badly hurt when you tell me all the mismatch, in a wrong timing, I’m not the right one or just the colorful life had gave you some impacts and influences. Hence you want to have a fine cut with all the cruel words and slice on my heart. Telling me to move on as you already did and the feeling of yours is not as strong as last time and you can lie to yourself that you still pretending to love me like before. Photos deleted is another sad scenario to me. No matter what, I just feel Love is love ...
Was trying hard to hold back for us, I'm so tired just so... No more strengh to hold on only on myself. I will move on and I am...
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2 weeks of suffering and now...
I am glad that I can now trying to complete my blog and wish to start with a new life perhaps without your shadow ... I wish this DDP Blog can always be a gallery for DDP~ Sotong & Jellyfish
I felt so thankful for those who worrying about me so much. Enough is enough, I told myself to move on like what he did. Paces could be different but thank god that I am moving.

Made a decision not to contact, message or email you could be the right solution to move faster. Was so wanted to contact you as friend that day but I didn't cause I'm moving far away from those who not love me or pretending loving me. What a co-incident that the pitying message in and corrupted half of my recovery plan.
Felt so strange that I've lost the excitement to chat... This could be a very good start... no more tears for you!

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To all the friends,

Especially for you~ Thank you for your encouragements and walked with me and shares my tears. Perhaps you guys are correct, future we will never know that what will happened.
Wishing him happy and be well...

Gonna start with the new blog...
Stay tune with the new Vanessa!

End of 2009

With tears it comes to the end of year 2009...

Zoukout Party in Singapore for a start of the month, was having fun but I wish he were there with me. This is the very first time I had my own party without him after 2 years plus. Drinking by controlling myself as a promise from myself to him.
Things seem going wrong and unpredictable these days...

Christmas is around the corner but the Christmas feel not as strong like years before. My only wish is wishing he will be back and at least we can spend precious time together, sharing, just a simply dinner at home or etc. 23rd approached and feeling peace with no excited and sixth sense telling me something may happened.

Met up with some friends for tea yet still feeling something wrong in my heart, it could be myself too sensitive or thinking too much. Just let it be I told myself... wishing to have a great times with the precious him. He had his last minutes shopping with his buddy and head to his cousin's place for Christmas dinner. This is quite a different Christmas that I had. I like Christmas but I may not know the real meaning of Christmas other than holidays and gifts exchange plus dinner.
To me this may not be the Christmas I wanted to celebrate but this is it. I respect as he wanted to spend time with his family.

Christmas day, I'm so upset as he has never plan to spend time with my family even a breakfast or quick lunch. This has brought things to the serious part where I never think off.
Ended with a cold conversation and tears... I missing him and is just so much...

Moments in Nov 09

What's in Nov?
Today's date was 20th Nov 2009 and it's almost month end & year of 2009 ended soon. To me month of Nov 09 is the beginning of a war to me. I gonna make myself re energized to work harder and smarter to achieve more ...most importantly more $$$ for the coming year "2010"

Had a session with the advisor, had been asked with questions and I'm stunned for the questions as I have no direction on myself hence I got to start reading again hopes this can re-load my energy level. Was feeling very bad by asking myself why is that others can do that and I can't. What's the problems with me and I've yet to figure out my problem till today! 'Lost direction and gonna find the aim and get back on track' ~ I'm basically don't know what to do for improvement and what's the problem with me.

Take a deep breath and calm myself... exhale...

Met up with the lovely lady (long lost friend) for dinner and chat. Spent more than 3 hours talking none stop while enjoying the Nacho's @ Chillis. "Hey babe, thank you for spending time for the meet up session. Was having so much fun and sharing!"

As usual, year end will be a peak season for the Wedding Bell. Another Hot chick was having a wedding ceremony, "Hey babe, I'm really happy to see both of you officially known as "Mr. & Mrs. Lee". During the wedding dinner's toasting and all the video clips shown had brought us back to the Stylish Angel memories and especially the Cherating trip, How your love story started!

Babe Ellie will be the next one ya! ;)

Finally, had a chance to travel /at least go for a kick off overseas in Singapore for few days instead of Orlando. Ever since the US trip cancelled due to the slop in economy I felt a bit depressed but still wish to have a chance to travel more frequent before planning to settle down (where I basically no instant plan yet, I think the Monkey too). During the trip, it's actually allow me to see how others work and is a must to explore and make your own networking around. Key: Making yourself outstanding and successful.

Realized team in Sg is so different from Malaysia team. They are more out-going kinda of characters and most of them are drinker (Quality + Qualified drinker & mostly HOT HOT Chick). I will always prefer & love to makes friend or travelling around as personally this could be a Great way to experience, observe & learn where we can't find them in the thick thick theory text book.

I'm just so tiny... yea~ thank you for telling me & sharing with me that "everyone will have their own strength" I hope mines was the useful strength... "a"
Glad that I've met up with a high school buddy during the trip. Looking at him, he has changed a lot as his outlook & inner, the way he speak and I can tell that he is more mature and drinker "leg". Can't believe that we had a bottle of Champagne just for a chill-out which less than 2 hours. Everyone is changing but is just a matter of improving or not moving.

Well last but not least for the busy month of Nov, there were something which long lost to me had happened... with this I find at least still Value.

It's started through phone conversation... let's see how the story goes later...

A Box with tonnes of precious smiles...

Digging all the memories out from a small box. It gave me so much of laughter and sweet memories DDPs had gone trough! From the first gift card I've receive to all the surprises short message written on the notepad.

It has at least brought me a smile especially when you are not around.
It stated how we start and how much efforts you have spent for the surprises. I'm so touched with it and Thank you for everything as I always say to you!


"I'm so glad that we finally gone through the test and finally a lovely couple for now but moving forward I felt there are so many uncertainty..."

Left with a heavy heart...

October 09

Had a great weekend with dearest and I'm proud to be his personal cheerleader for the pool tournament."Yeah... It's Kuching again" may sound bored to others but for me is a gateway to recharge and to visit the dark prince.

Was traveling around with a couple during the trip and 1st time, self drive to the Caves and drive them for some tours. Most of the times during the trip we spent for foods and beers.They went back one day earlier than me and wish they had some great times for the short holidays.

Finally, both manage to spend some quality time together at home for DVD during the Saturday night at least had a good rest. I'm glad that you can have a rest at home at least for a weekend. Had a great breakfast on Sunday morning, it makes me feel warm.

"Thank you for everything you did for me, My dearest!"

I've a feeling that...especially after this trip, it had tighten up the relationship between us. With a heavy heart, caught a night flight back to home. Tonnes of the missing but still we gonna be strong and back on our own.

Scene that making me think... "too much"

Was driving home after work in the slow moving traffic. I'm feeling weak in mentality majority caused by "future" and the changes of organization although not much affect to myself but just feel with insecure. Have a thought to update my resume and start to hunt for a new one but every time when I feel like update it and I refuse to do so.

"WHY?" Personally I feel good to growth my career path with the current environment especially with a good advisor and teacher. This will be only reason I can think off of staying still.

While waiting for the red light turning green under the fly over bridge, I saw a scene that cars queuing up from 3 lane road and squeezing to 1 land in order to go up to fly over. That is why caused the slow traffic but once you gone up then there is another scene which is highway with no more jam.

With this, I've relate the scene back to myself. Now, my working energy is low and I'm loose focus. The fly over was the learning curve;I'm stucked and yet to see the scene behind. Work harder gain the experience and sooner will come to a highway with no more jam - right attitude!

What about September? Looking forward to October...

September

~ 7th, remind me the one month old on the road... "blink blink"... and went up to Genting at least 3 times... the very first time of driving up to the hill. Sweat +_+"
The very first time paying for the loan for the past 25 years.

~ 11th ~ DDP's weekend, & the BOSS. Japanese fine dining @ Ozeki -oh yeah, delicious yumm yumm~~, hanged out with friend @ WIP; Bangsar. Visiting Mr. Lim in Genting and most importantly...spending times together for the DDP. ~ gOOd~ I luf it... Although sending to the airport early in the morning but it made me experience sleeping in the car at carpark...

~ Long weekend for the Hari Raya break- after the sweet weekend, here I go for the peaceful and self quarantine @ KK. ENJOY the smooth traffic, self quarantine, slow drive, accompany mum , celebrating mum's birthday with the expensive dinner. Attended colleague's wedding dinner and went home for drama series. If without the wedding dinner I must be in Kuching ...I guess...

Had a good rest and stayed in the house for more than 48hrs surviving with Chocolate, Moon cakes, Maggie mee & home cooked porridge...it's so delightful...

~ Moving forward, the coming weekend on the 25th will be the Night Race @ Singapore
Was so excited about the trip, F1 Night race and partying with gang. Departed on 25th and was facing some slight delayed due to the system down in LCCT. Took a nap on the plane and expecting my dearest in Singapore. Touched down at 2 plus but was waiting for DDP for 2 hours in the airport due to the Technical issue on the MAS aircraft. ~Sigh~~ +_="

Day 1 with the expensive dinner with SAKE & went to a bossy club named White Rabbit... where 99.99% serve only Champagne... "Moet"?



Day 2, Body not feeling well but still went for partying...Attended a party held in the Museum and met BlackEyePeas... oooh yeah!!!



Anyway, the most enjoyable was the last day of the trip...Casual and watch the F1 Night race with dearest...hehe... thank you for the expensive tickets ...muaxx muaxxsss... This is the very 1st time I experience the sound of the engine with so near of disctance.

I enjoyed the time we spent together the very precious moment of all... & the Lovely gift from you!

Force technique works on dealers

Been waiting for the Japanese babe since end of May... I think I had enough experience to handle all this shit. Started with the Bank loan and then follow by the numbers. I thought that was end of the story and almost there for the collection but it's happened again...

A call from dealer, "Hey, We are unable to deliver the Metallic Grey but as spoken to the boss they allow me to get you a black one if you insists to have the car by this month." I've not much choice as the Grey have to wait till end of September so I decided to go with BLACK.
It comes again, "Erm, I think only Tuesday can get the car for you cause we have yet to receive the stock, can we? Moreover I'm on leave from Wednesday till next week"

At last, I've made up my mind and tell them that I'm done with this. Last decision, by this Saturday I want the car else I will re-consider to wait for the grey and cancel the order hence you they are not the only dealer in town.

Early in the morning, they call and said our runner is working on it and should be fine by tomorrow morning at 10. Can you please bank in the money for us else can't get approval... hahaha... let's see how then!

sick... Doctor & Patients

It could be the hazy day or it could be the H1N1 ...I've fallen in sick on Monday started with sore throat, on MC and Tuesday on MC too. Due to the road closure, I'm unable to meet up with specialist last week and I decided to try my luck again on Tuesday.

This lady doctor was so strange and didn't talk much , I don't even have a chance to ask question and she just do whatever she can suppose to and said you may go now... Taken the medicine and she said will see me again. Made the payment and I left. Hope she can really help me on the illness.

Get back to work on Wednesday and wanted to chase back the time I've lost for 2 days MC. One of my colleague was sick since last week too. Who knows, thursday I started to have cough and friday with flu...

Sister also fallen into sick and start fever since Wednesday. Just got a call from mom said that she may be in "Dengue" . Have to wait till tomorrow and if any serious then will admit to the hospital. They been trying for several hospital and it seems none of them have enough capacity for patients.

Hope we will get well soon from the Bad Weather!

During these periods, doctors and clinics will be the one earning the money I believe...

"Insecurity"

The definition of "Insecurity"
lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt; instability; something insecure: too many insecurities of life.

Today, I'm just not perfect in mood and decided to swim hopes it can actually help to give me some thoughts or answer. Tried and expressed my feeling to a friend and I'm glad that he is smart enough to understand my indirect question and given me his kinda philosophy. I would said that I may not agree but that's could be an alternative way for solving too.
We started a big question since month ago when he telling me to give him some spaces and he need to spend some times alone. I did and I do understand with his workloads and pressures he had is absolutely not a simple job but I swear my thinking and feeling doesn't go side track or sensitive with it.

"How can you predict in advance that I will and assuming you are correct with the forecast? I had a feeling of small disappointment on you because you are not quite understand me. Why? Because you always think you are RIGHT. From day ever since you are there I thought we were aiming for the our career and better future. That's why I never think of others until you brought this up.

Asked myself what is the definition of "Insecurities" when the word appeared on the screen. "What does this word mean to me?" "How am I applied this word?"

Answer: "Trust"
As you say:" To build a "Trust" in a relationship is not easy once it accepted and will works well.Once it's broken it can be a memory or scars." I've promised to put more efforts and I did it!

I believe this could be a good topic or challenge for us to moving forward if we can solve the insecurities of our life...Let's move to the Next stage...

25th July of My Life

"Cancerian babe 09~"

Week ago I had my trip to Kuching for World Rainforest's Festival 2009 with friends. Touched down on the eve, 10th. with tiredness but I'm still excited to be wish. Took 1 an half hour flight plus 45 minutes ride on the cab and I'm expecting to see DP. Arrived 5 more mins before midnight and still on his duty, had a beer with friend who accompany me all the way from the west to the east for the party without knowing the big day of mine. While waiting at the lobby we decided to have a pool session and when they are back we just checked in to the room and change our attires.

Heading out again to a friend place for 2nd round but still none of them realized about MY "dob". Anybody else forget I'm sure I'll be pretty fine with it but he shouldn't forgot and still kept partying drinking hanged out with GIRLS and still lean comfortably seeing stars and chatting with a girl. "That's sound good and almost forget me..." Friend are trying to cheer me up and asked for a toast and I whispering to them "Today is my 25th Birthday!" You guys should "down for the beer". They were shock and shout it loud and the "Sotong", jumped off from hammock and ran to me for a hug and apology cause he forgot this.

"Of course I understand he has tonne of duties but when you see his kind of enjoying chatting & drinking, I tell you ... none of the Gf will forgive him".I'm so upset with this, at that moment I'm so regret for my appearance, I should have stay in KL or to HK alone instead of getting the tickets forfeited. Anyhow, I'm still smile at him... I keep telling myself "He is busy, stressed and he should be forgiven"

9 days trip, spent 3 days in the Rainforest's Music Festival most of the time I'm hanging with some friends..CC..ED...KH..

On the Saturday itself I felt a bit slow of the day and nothing much special happened just a birthday toast from the Kuching friends. Had a sweaty day and feeling dizzy and slept earlier when back in hotel. Hence the guys had some men's talk at the pool side.

Sunday, DP & I had been invited for a cruise trip by Bob. Went on board with some friends and to an island so called "Jetski Island". A good experience for this trip, swimming in the sea having jet ski, drinking champagne it's just so enjoyed! Anyhow, some words and question have made me worried & perhaps think too much.

"I don't know how also, sometimes I don't know how and when you were waiting in KL. Perhaps I'm not ready... so How?..."

What's the problem now? I don't understand, just tell! argh...

Throughout the 4-6 days, feeling depressed. What's the matter now, working pressures, stress or commitment phobia or changes happened? Should or shouldn't mention & bring this up for a good chat?All these are the big big question mark!

Most of the activities for this trip are drinking and eating plus working on some email stuffs. Had a chance visited to some new hangout place. Saturday night with the heavy heart, DP decided to have dinner with a bottle of wine after the DVD session. Tried to have a good chat after some wine but questions still a myth...

Me and Myself...

After the March holidays I had and last week I've travel to East Malaysia again. Although everyone is worrying for influenza HINI lately but I still keep my attendance to the high risk venue "Airport". I should be happy with the leaves approved by my boss but I felt restless. It could be too much of uncertainty on my mind.

I felt tiring with my life... I just don't why! Lost of balance and gain on weight may be...

I'm glad that on my career path with boss assists I learn something for the past few months. Now, my revenue went to the slop and facing the downturn. I'm so worried but yet don't know what to do. No doubt, I'm having some negative thoughts. I'm lossing direction again... I want to back on track but HOW???

I DON'T KNOW!!!

I missed the Italian babe and my dearest DDP lately, I found myself changed. I wanted to be independent and strong but sometimes I just feel myself spoiled by "you". Been telling myself I can do it myself but sometimes I just weak there are too much burden on me and may be the increasing of my age has caught me to worry about my own financial planning. I can't event made a simple decision myself.

Tried not think with the word "IF" but that's the FACT... I just wish to get off from the bloody "$" OUT OF MY WAY and you idiot just stay away from my life forever as when I think of this I can't forgive myself. Without the trouble you brought I can be in Peace.
Oh baby, I'm gonna cooling down as I promised not to mention this again ... but this made me frustrated and up set ...I can't forgive myself with this... stupid me!!! arghhhhhh......

Out of the hundred things, there is one thing that I felt happy at least... oh ya the NewJapanese Babe! I really hope that I can have it as soon as I can and I can return the older Japanese babe to the family. I love the older Japanese Babe too but no point fighting and borrowing from them. Sharing among us but maintenance by ME. I'm the one who support them but NONE of them understand me and why I still need to contribute and support them??? Sometimes I rather stay late in the office, went gym, hanged out with friends and over to the east. Why do I need to take the burden myself? I'm not the only one earning or working? I contribute the most but I just need to have a spaces and some cares, can I?

Do I have the rights to at least speak louder at home? I wish to have something different on my blog instead of the problems. Looking at others blog, it make me pissed off with myself. From day one till now, my life seems never improve...still...

It's not easy!

Mount Kinabalu 27032009

We have made it to the Low's Peak... it's not easy!!!

Out of Planed!!!

Initially I felt so tiring... "Family, Career, nor other matter which surrounded me!!!" I felt weak sometimes... things happened and most important was the me now is not me compared last times... I've changed alotzzz... Changed to be really realistics... especially for better lifstyle...

I'm just bored with what I'm doing now...Percisely "it's time to walk forward for different level; and YES, I need to be more patient as I wanted to achieve more this year especially when I flashed back what I have did for last year... I've no idea at all what I've learnt or what the bigger thing that I have achieve.... ya... the only one was getting along with "L" finally... and switch job!

Sometimes I just felt demotivated... I work hard and harder but still i'm stepping on the same stone... I just want to have my own things and still yet to afford that!

元宵节之“牛”记 ~~ Chap Goh Mei D last day of lunar new year!!!

After 14th days of Lunar New Year Celebration...today will be the last day and is Chap Goh Mei... also we known as Chinese Valentine's Day!!!
I've started work on the 8th day of cny,nothing much to do for this new year as companion had back to the east for work... At the same time I found CNY was a bit bored to me as I growth elder.
As usual on the first day of cny celebration was visiting my Grandma and some relatives but this year was special as my dad follow us for the visiting. We had a trip to Ipoh for visiting but unfortunately the friend has admited to the hospital and mum and I have donated blood for him... Hope he can get well soon...

My dearest was falled sick on the 2nd and 3rd days. Hence nothing much to do until the 6th day onwards only lotz of planned... but still to me quite bored! Perhaps next CNY I will planned to celebrate overseas. For this "niu" /new year, I don't find any lion dance nor chinese celebration much in town is just too quite... wondering is that because of the impact of Financial Crisis.

flips...flips today is the last day of CNY...

I'm focused more on my career, family...wish my parent always happy and healthy...

“恭喜发财 ；迎春接福”

~~~ Happy Lunar Year ~~~

Wishing all my beloved Family members, Darling & dearest friends;

Properous "niu" year with wealth & health!!!

恭祝大家：

年年有余， 新春佳节横财就手，身体健康，幸福满天下。。。

恭喜发财；红包满满拿来！！！

Congrat.to the newly weds couple!!!

"Congratulation Mr Bobby & Shentel"

Had been invited for a wedding dinner @Kuching...The lovely couple Bob & Shentel is finally attached with a huge party on the east coast!

Their wedding ceremony might be the Dreamz Wedding for most of the ladies from the wedding... personally I like the wedding decoration in Australia better... simple and warm. As for the Kuching wedding, it might be too much of Lantern and too packed... but it's nice too.

Get to meet up with some of the friend and people I met during my 1st visit. Everyone was super tension when I first arrived included Mr Lim. Work from 7 to midnight...and even morning for the super event of Bob's Wedding function.

Arrived on Thurs midnight, on the same flight there already few of the passenger was being invited for the wedding dinner... hahaha :) Dedicated driver picked me up from the airport with his working attire and we get back to the apartment resting for tomorrow big day!

630am Woke up for the preparation... while I was still zzzzz with my sweet dream...

730am Buzz me for the ceremony back in Bob's house... but I refuse to wake up....CONT. zzzz

1130am Baby back from the morning sessions... and back for a nap....

3.30pm Lunch @ Four Point Eatery and met the MC "Tian" & the "GROOM" he is still working during his wedding day...

6pm Getting reading for the big event at Four Point Hotel... make-up and dressed up had took bout 1 1/2 hours... Dearest came back and pick me up for the dinner.

Arrived on the lobby entrance... welcomed with the drum by 6 drummers, walking on the Red carpet bout 200meters long from the entrance to the grand ballroom was like celebrities kinda welcome and photographer stand by for photo shooting beside the aisle of the red carpet. Holding Mr Lim hand and we walked together as some of the staffs greet us while passing by. Finally we are here at the ballroom doorstep was lotz of people having a chat and waiting for the wedding dinner to be start...

Dearest Mr Lim walked me around to introduce me to the staffs and some business associate partners of him. Thank you for giving me these opportunities to meet up with all your friends and colleagues,babe! It's my pleasure to know more and learn more! Finally Mr Kong arrived and among all of them he will be the only one I familiar with... we stand together and had a chat with Loong's gang. Looked around, there were lotz of the women in chilli red dresses where I had finally chosen the one with black based. I like my dress and thank you baby for spent me such an expensive dress I have never had. Hope you like the dress I had wore for the function too...& thank you for the dressess!

@ Wedding Dinner on the Red Carpet...shiok!!!

Ballroom lounge deco with Chinese lanterns and full of new year mood. Dinner began at 8 plus, guests invited to the ballroom with drums. Our seats was table 40 but ended up 43 as some of them had taken out seats. Patrick has give me a hand to get a seat.


Dinner start with an appetizer salad and prawns... then as usual served with White wine or red wine, beer and etc... MC start with greeting and then wait for the VVIP arrival again for the main course to be served.

VVIP arrived at 9 ish and main course served , choose either beef or fish as it will be served alternately. I had the fish but as the portion was so little I think most of the guest not enough for it though. While the main course served, Tan Sri was giving a speech and after the speech was the toasting session from the new wed's couple. Mc Tian had invite the couple for game and all about the "female frog and lubricant (Baby oils)" Then Dr. Lincoln gave a speech. A local singer had been invited as the performer for a few songs after Dr. Lincoln speech.

Well well well... the real wedding party starts right after VVIP left... and chefs have made some porridge for us... Guess what? Everyone who attended the party had few bow of porridge...Me, myself have 2 bows.

Yeah is party time!!!

Last 2 days in Kuching....having fun...

Doggie Are Human Best Friends!!! Agreed!!!

Ever since the accident falled off from my bicycle when I was 9 yrs old... slight changed to my life. From I dont like doggie till I like to have doggie as pet at home. At first when people said doggie can be human best friends but I never agreed, now it's proved that it's real.Never says never. Unconsciously, I started loving my doggie. I have 2 doggie named "Bobby & Ruby"... they are now apart of our family members.

Lately, I had a very bad feeling that bobby will be leaving me very soon as he is getting skinny and skinny... no appetite and not active and energetic. We safe his life when he was 3 months old from an accident in front of my house. I still remember on the same date my parent had accident and mom hurt her nose due to emergency break. Bob, had some hard times and poor little puppy have to start his painful life since 3 months old.

I have covered him with my t-shirt and hugged him tightly in my arms and tell him that everything will be fine. I can see from his eyes how painful he is...and tears... Now, he is old and weak...all these year he becomes our companion especially for me.

I really hope that BOB can recover and at least stay with us for longer...

High Cost Investment!!!

Never spent such a huge amount for dinner dresses man! Due to the superstars wedding invitation which will held on 16th Jan. I've been looking for a red dresses from the Klang Valley for monthsss... finally got it with a girlfriend who have same name as my chinese name "li leng" hahaha... from one of the boutique in "One u"

The billed statement hahahaha....

"Thank you my dear as when I needed my DDP the most you are here to help and advise me!!!"

Muah muah muah... Crystal... Oh my Crystal!!!

But still I found the Dresses were expensive... Although I like it... and although DP sponsor me....Hopes DP like it...

It's said the Fabric made in Italy... really???

09 New Year Celebration @ East Coast!!!

For the very first time... DDP on the east!!!

After the trip down to Singapore I went to East Coast for New Year! To me... there are lotz of the 1st time...

1st time to Kuching
1st time to had dinner with VVIP
1st time had sharks fins with chopsticks
1st for Sarawak Laksa
1st time to have "Empura Fish" (If not mistaken with the name and it cost RM600/KG)
1st time Chinese tradition foot massage
1st time ..... erm... had close door New Year Celebration 2009.
&
Last but not least... the most important...
1st time "WE" celebrate new year together!!!

I really wish that this can be the first time we celebrate together and the rest of the new year we can celebrate together...



New Year countdown @ Junk Bar

Although we never spent too much time together but I enjoyed the trip a lotz...
Thank you!

My journey Down to the South; Fly to the East!!!

After 2 week apart, finally met in South... We are pretty fine even apart. Perhaps, I'm used to it as he travel frequently. No doubt, I had cut down lotz of the happy hour or after work activities... but still guys and gal you are welcome to buzzz me man!!! and AGAIN.... I am okay although my Prince working hard and in the WAR on the East Coast!

Season's Greeting... Merry Christmas!!!
Had a Christmas Celebration in Singapore... For you, I drove the italian babe all the way down to the south and to Singapore. 4 hours drive and 1 hour traffic jam at Tuas custom, but still manage to get you in the airport. My first time drove all the way to Changi Airport in Singapore. I thought I will be very very "gen cheong" but in fact I'm quite steady when I saw DDP.Was so happy to see each other!

Here we start our celebration in Singapore...for Christmas...

"~Celebrating 08' Christmas @ Sg with DDP~"

We stayed in one of the Budget Hotel near Vivo City... check in and placed all the baggage in the room and had dinner in Vivo City; such a huge shopping mall with lotz of variety of food... at last we had dinner in "Marche"...

Lighting deco outside the courtyard...after the side seeing and quick shopping in Vivo city... we heading back to hotel and take a rest before we heading out again...

tic toc tic toc~~~~

It's time to pick "hihi" from her house...suppose to have some drinks but the "hihi" not as happening people as "Crystal". She brought us around but all the bar or shops was closed!!! aiks... walk all the way down to cafe del ma but the bar was cloased. Still I managed to snap a photos...it's nice but huh!!! I think I will not go in to this place anymore.... "Should say thanks to Ms Pat." but sorry to Cafe del ma...

Heavy rain in the midnight til morning...well... it's "Christmas Eve" we had breakfast at Kampung Bharu- "Shanghai Food" meet up with Liew and had a chat... we had "tou fu fa" and shop at Paragon. Unfortunately all the shops closed at 6pm so we can't get anything. Met up with Nor... and she told us to try the "YU LOU BOU"...

~ Fish Head Soup!!! ~

After the dinner we went back change and ready for party... but it's starts rain again... this time we head down to "Clark Quay"...We countdown in the car while on the way to the destination... Arrived and saw lotz of people and smoke... who said singaporean not smoking... here was like hell... smokes around...
We bought ourselves bottles of beer... walking around and enjoy the beer... after that was heading to "Gelang" but I falled asleep in the car...hehe :) effort wasted! The next day, heading down to town to shop... Was looking for a dress for BOB wedding, saw one was fitted and nice... guess what?? it cost ~SG$900 converted will be almost RM2K plus..."Nicole Miller"... I will not buy that... anyway... we went into the branded shops with the long queue... things there not cheap and compare dollars to dollars can get cheaper in KL...