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Hardest time of the year for Me and DDP

2009-12-31T18:46:00.010+08:00

It seems everything has just came to an end with a very concrete decision made.
My both hands were shaking and it's just hard to type on the keypad ; mind was empty while I'm trying to draft this 2 weeks ago. Now,this is the fact and everything should come to a complete full stop. Perhaps I should take this as a nice full stop for DDP & The end of the blog I believed. I will miss this...always!!!

"Heart is just so heavy, I've no idea whether this will continue with part 2 or alive one day but as everyone said... things can happen and is already happened. No one will know what will happened and what's the arrangement we will never know. All the harsh words still fresh in mind and left with deep cuts.
Nothing much can be done other than move on and let it go... as times passes by...

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Last week of 2009, can't believed that the happiness which I had for 2 years plus gone as 09 saying goodbye. Had been fighting for the chance to solve the problem but things not working now still...Come to a blank page of my life which I had never experience before. Told myself to move on after the conversation with DDP. I thought I can and I am strong to handle myself, I believed. Without him, I feel weak it seems like the fairy tales story had come to an end and will be far away from me. Telling myself not to cry as I gonna be as strong as him if I were to follow the way he improve and perhaps his pace.

Believing in Fate? Yes, I used to believe this but now I don't know. He told that we can go so far and believe that fate arrange us together and he will never stop loving me or wanting me to worry. Promised me never leave me alone and will celebrate my birthday showering with his never ending love. Why is this happened to us and why this is just cruel to me. He can even told me that no turning back needed and he had let go 100% and move on.
Friends told me that he may have plan or switching attention to others that can light up the feeling of flame. Some even told me that you just entering to a colourful life and had tasted the new blood. I trust the one I know "you" are still you; may be I'm lying to myself, may be I'm just being naive the you now is not the one I have for the last 2 years.

Remember the last hug we had in front of the airport and that was the most heavy heart I ever had before. You promised me not think of this and we gonna be alright and will talk later but why again you broke your promise again. Along the way back from the airport, my mind keeps flipping with all the sweetest memories we had along the our relationship.

Started with a cup of Mocha>>> No Whipped under the big Green sign... We were then started the journey of sweetest and painful moments. Getting along together is the hardest thing for us and this is why I appreciated us. Singapore Trip... Bali Trip... Valentine Surprises 08, Birthday dinner arrangement, Home cooked romantic dinners, sudden appearances for 09 Valentine, most of the traveling trip and the most challenging trip for us Mount KK. Without you, I am sure I may not be able to make it... Thank you baby for all the encouragement and step by step!

It was badly hurt when you tell me all the mismatch, in a wrong timing, I’m not the right one or just the colorful life had gave you some impacts and influences. Hence you want to have a fine cut with all the cruel words and slice on my heart. Telling me to move on as you already did and the feeling of yours is not as strong as last time and you can lie to yourself that you still pretending to love me like before. Photos deleted is another sad scenario to me. No matter what, I just feel Love is love ...
Was trying hard to hold back for us, I'm so tired just so... No more strengh to hold on only on myself. I will move on and I am...
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2 weeks of suffering and now...
I am glad that I can now trying to complete my blog and wish to start with a new life perhaps without your shadow ... I wish this DDP Blog can always be a gallery for DDP~ Sotong & Jellyfish
I felt so thankful for those who worrying about me so much. Enough is enough, I told myself to move on like what he did. Paces could be different but thank god that I am moving.

Made a decision not to contact, message or email you could be the right solution to move faster. Was so wanted to contact you as friend that day but I didn't cause I'm moving far away from those who not love me or pretending loving me. What a co-incident that the pitying message in and corrupted half of my recovery plan.
Felt so strange that I've lost the excitement to chat... This could be a very good start... no more tears for you!

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To all the friends,

Especially for you~ Thank you for your encouragements and walked with me and shares my tears. Perhaps you guys are correct, future we will never know that what will happened.
Wishing him happy and be well...

Gonna start with the new blog...
Stay tune with the new Vanessa!

End of 2009

2009-12-26T19:15:00.011+08:00

With tears it comes to the end of year 2009...

Zoukout Party in Singapore for a start of the month, was having fun but I wish he were there with me. This is the very first time I had my own party without him after 2 years plus. Drinking by controlling myself as a promise from myself to him.
Things seem going wrong and unpredictable these days...

Christmas is around the corner but the Christmas feel not as strong like years before. My only wish is wishing he will be back and at least we can spend precious time together, sharing, just a simply dinner at home or etc. 23rd approached and feeling peace with no excited and sixth sense telling me something may happened.

Met up with some friends for tea yet still feeling something wrong in my heart, it could be myself too sensitive or thinking too much. Just let it be I told myself... wishing to have a great times with the precious him. He had his last minutes shopping with his buddy and head to his cousin's place for Christmas dinner. This is quite a different Christmas that I had. I like Christmas but I may not know the real meaning of Christmas other than holidays and gifts exchange plus dinner.
To me this may not be the Christmas I wanted to celebrate but this is it. I respect as he wanted to spend time with his family.

Christmas day, I'm so upset as he has never plan to spend time with my family even a breakfast or quick lunch. This has brought things to the serious part where I never think off.
Ended with a cold conversation and tears... I missing him and is just so much...

Moments in Nov 09

2009-11-20T16:36:00.000+08:00

What's in Nov?
Today's date was 20th Nov 2009 and it's almost month end & year of 2009 ended soon. To me month of Nov 09 is the beginning of a war to me. I gonna make myself re energized to work harder and smarter to achieve more ...most importantly more $$$ for the coming year "2010"

Had a session with the advisor, had been asked with questions and I'm stunned for the questions as I have no direction on myself hence I got to start reading again hopes this can re-load my energy level. Was feeling very bad by asking myself why is that others can do that and I can't. What's the problems with me and I've yet to figure out my problem till today! 'Lost direction and gonna find the aim and get back on track' ~ I'm basically don't know what to do for improvement and what's the problem with me.

Take a deep breath and calm myself... exhale...

Met up with the lovely lady (long lost friend) for dinner and chat. Spent more than 3 hours talking none stop while enjoying the Nacho's @ Chillis. "Hey babe, thank you for spending time for the meet up session. Was having so much fun and sharing!"

As usual, year end will be a peak season for the Wedding Bell. Another Hot chick was having a wedding ceremony, "Hey babe, I'm really happy to see both of you officially known as "Mr. & Mrs. Lee". During the wedding dinner's toasting and all the video clips shown had brought us back to the Stylish Angel memories and especially the Cherating trip, How your love story started!

Babe Ellie will be the next one ya! ;)

Finally, had a chance to travel /at least go for a kick off overseas in Singapore for few days instead of Orlando. Ever since the US trip cancelled due to the slop in economy I felt a bit depressed but still wish to have a chance to travel more frequent before planning to settle down (where I basically no instant plan yet, I think the Monkey too). During the trip, it's actually allow me to see how others work and is a must to explore and make your own networking around. Key: Making yourself outstanding and successful.

Realized team in Sg is so different from Malaysia team. They are more out-going kinda of characters and most of them are drinker (Quality + Qualified drinker & mostly HOT HOT Chick). I will always prefer & love to makes friend or travelling around as personally this could be a Great way to experience, observe & learn where we can't find them in the thick thick theory text book.

I'm just so tiny... yea~ thank you for telling me & sharing with me that "everyone will have their own strength" I hope mines was the useful strength... "a"
Glad that I've met up with a high school buddy during the trip. Looking at him, he has changed a lot as his outlook & inner, the way he speak and I can tell that he is more mature and drinker "leg". Can't believe that we had a bottle of Champagne just for a chill-out which less than 2 hours. Everyone is changing but is just a matter of improving or not moving.

Well last but not least for the busy month of Nov, there were something which long lost to me had happened... with this I find at least still Value.

It's started through phone conversation... let's see how the story goes later...

A Box with tonnes of precious smiles...

2009-10-30T17:24:00.014+08:00

Digging all the memories out from a small box. It gave me so much of laughter and sweet memories DDPs had gone trough! From the first gift card I've receive to all the surprises short message written on the notepad.

It has at least brought me a smile especially when you are not around.
It stated how we start and how much efforts you have spent for the surprises. I'm so touched with it and Thank you for everything as I always say to you!

"I'm so glad that we finally gone through the test and finally a lovely couple for now but moving forward I felt there are so many uncertainty..."

Left with a heavy heart...

2009-10-20T15:12:00.008+08:00

October 09

Had a great weekend with dearest and I'm proud to be his personal cheerleader for the pool tournament."Yeah... It's Kuching again" may sound bored to others but for me is a gateway to recharge and to visit the dark prince.

Was traveling around with a couple during the trip and 1st time, self drive to the Caves and drive them for some tours. Most of the times during the trip we spent for foods and beers.They went back one day earlier than me and wish they had some great times for the short holidays.

Finally, both manage to spend some quality time together at home for DVD during the Saturday night at least had a good rest. I'm glad that you can have a rest at home at least for a weekend. Had a great breakfast on Sunday morning, it makes me feel warm.

"Thank you for everything you did for me, My dearest!"

I've a feeling that...especially after this trip, it had tighten up the relationship between us. With a heavy heart, caught a night flight back to home. Tonnes of the missing but still we gonna be strong and back on our own.

Scene that making me think... "too much"

2009-10-09T18:26:00.007+08:00

Was driving home after work in the slow moving traffic. I'm feeling weak in mentality majority caused by "future" and the changes of organization although not much affect to myself but just feel with insecure. Have a thought to update my resume and start to hunt for a new one but every time when I feel like update it and I refuse to do so.

"WHY?" Personally I feel good to growth my career path with the current environment especially with a good advisor and teacher. This will be only reason I can think off of staying still.

While waiting for the red light turning green under the fly over bridge, I saw a scene that cars queuing up from 3 lane road and squeezing to 1 land in order to go up to fly over. That is why caused the slow traffic but once you gone up then there is another scene which is highway with no more jam.

With this, I've relate the scene back to myself. Now, my working energy is low and I'm loose focus. The fly over was the learning curve;I'm stucked and yet to see the scene behind. Work harder gain the experience and sooner will come to a highway with no more jam - right attitude!

What about September? Looking forward to October...

2009-10-05T12:46:00.013+08:00

September

~ 7th, remind me the one month old on the road... "blink blink"... and went up to Genting at least 3 times... the very first time of driving up to the hill. Sweat +_+"
The very first time paying for the loan for the past 25 years.

~ 11th ~ DDP's weekend, & the BOSS. Japanese fine dining @ Ozeki -oh yeah, delicious yumm yumm~~, hanged out with friend @ WIP; Bangsar. Visiting Mr. Lim in Genting and most importantly...spending times together for the DDP. ~ gOOd~ I luf it... Although sending to the airport early in the morning but it made me experience sleeping in the car at carpark...

~ Long weekend for the Hari Raya break- after the sweet weekend, here I go for the peaceful and self quarantine @ KK. ENJOY the smooth traffic, self quarantine, slow drive, accompany mum , celebrating mum's birthday with the expensive dinner. Attended colleague's wedding dinner and went home for drama series. If without the wedding dinner I must be in Kuching ...I guess...

Had a good rest and stayed in the house for more than 48hrs surviving with Chocolate, Moon cakes, Maggie mee & home cooked porridge...it's so delightful...

~ Moving forward, the coming weekend on the 25th will be the Night Race @ Singapore
Was so excited about the trip, F1 Night race and partying with gang. Departed on 25th and was facing some slight delayed due to the system down in LCCT. Took a nap on the plane and expecting my dearest in Singapore. Touched down at 2 plus but was waiting for DDP for 2 hours in the airport due to the Technical issue on the MAS aircraft. ~Sigh~~ +_="

Day 1 with the expensive dinner with SAKE & went to a bossy club named White Rabbit... where 99.99% serve only Champagne... "Moet"?

Day 2, Body not feeling well but still went for partying...Attended a party held in the Museum and met BlackEyePeas... oooh yeah!!!

Anyway, the most enjoyable was the last day of the trip...Casual and watch the F1 Night race with dearest...hehe... thank you for the expensive tickets ...muaxx muaxxsss... This is the very 1st time I experience the sound of the engine with so near of disctance.

I enjoyed the time we spent together the very precious moment of all... & the Lovely gift from you!

Force technique works on dealers

2009-08-07T18:47:00.005+08:00

Been waiting for the Japanese babe since end of May... I think I had enough experience to handle all this shit. Started with the Bank loan and then follow by the numbers. I thought that was end of the story and almost there for the collection but it's happened again...

A call from dealer, "Hey, We are unable to deliver the Metallic Grey but as spoken to the boss they allow me to get you a black one if you insists to have the car by this month." I've not much choice as the Grey have to wait till end of September so I decided to go with BLACK.
It comes again, "Erm, I think only Tuesday can get the car for you cause we have yet to receive the stock, can we? Moreover I'm on leave from Wednesday till next week"

At last, I've made up my mind and tell them that I'm done with this. Last decision, by this Saturday I want the car else I will re-consider to wait for the grey and cancel the order hence you they are not the only dealer in town.

Early in the morning, they call and said our runner is working on it and should be fine by tomorrow morning at 10. Can you please bank in the money for us else can't get approval... hahaha... let's see how then!

sick... Doctor & Patients

2009-08-07T18:33:00.005+08:00

It could be the hazy day or it could be the H1N1 ...I've fallen in sick on Monday started with sore throat, on MC and Tuesday on MC too. Due to the road closure, I'm unable to meet up with specialist last week and I decided to try my luck again on Tuesday.

This lady doctor was so strange and didn't talk much , I don't even have a chance to ask question and she just do whatever she can suppose to and said you may go now... Taken the medicine and she said will see me again. Made the payment and I left. Hope she can really help me on the illness.

Get back to work on Wednesday and wanted to chase back the time I've lost for 2 days MC. One of my colleague was sick since last week too. Who knows, thursday I started to have cough and friday with flu...

Sister also fallen into sick and start fever since Wednesday. Just got a call from mom said that she may be in "Dengue" . Have to wait till tomorrow and if any serious then will admit to the hospital. They been trying for several hospital and it seems none of them have enough capacity for patients.

Hope we will get well soon from the Bad Weather!

During these periods, doctors and clinics will be the one earning the money I believe...

"Insecurity"

2009-07-24T15:58:00.003+08:00

The definition of "Insecurity"
lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt; instability; something insecure: too many insecurities of life.

Today, I'm just not perfect in mood and decided to swim hopes it can actually help to give me some thoughts or answer. Tried and expressed my feeling to a friend and I'm glad that he is smart enough to understand my indirect question and given me his kinda philosophy. I would said that I may not agree but that's could be an alternative way for solving too.
We started a big question since month ago when he telling me to give him some spaces and he need to spend some times alone. I did and I do understand with his workloads and pressures he had is absolutely not a simple job but I swear my thinking and feeling doesn't go side track or sensitive with it.

"How can you predict in advance that I will and assuming you are correct with the forecast? I had a feeling of small disappointment on you because you are not quite understand me. Why? Because you always think you are RIGHT. From day ever since you are there I thought we were aiming for the our career and better future. That's why I never think of others until you brought this up.

Asked myself what is the definition of "Insecurities" when the word appeared on the screen. "What does this word mean to me?" "How am I applied this word?"

Answer: "Trust"
As you say:" To build a "Trust" in a relationship is not easy once it accepted and will works well.Once it's broken it can be a memory or scars." I've promised to put more efforts and I did it!

I believe this could be a good topic or challenge for us to moving forward if we can solve the insecurities of our life...Let's move to the Next stage...

25th July of My Life

2009-07-20T23:25:00.006+08:00

"Cancerian babe 09~"

Week ago I had my trip to Kuching for World Rainforest's Festival 2009 with friends. Touched down on the eve, 10th. with tiredness but I'm still excited to be wish. Took 1 an half hour flight plus 45 minutes ride on the cab and I'm expecting to see DP. Arrived 5 more mins before midnight and still on his duty, had a beer with friend who accompany me all the way from the west to the east for the party without knowing the big day of mine. While waiting at the lobby we decided to have a pool session and when they are back we just checked in to the room and change our attires.

Heading out again to a friend place for 2nd round but still none of them realized about MY "dob". Anybody else forget I'm sure I'll be pretty fine with it but he shouldn't forgot and still kept partying drinking hanged out with GIRLS and still lean comfortably seeing stars and chatting with a girl. "That's sound good and almost forget me..." Friend are trying to cheer me up and asked for a toast and I whispering to them "Today is my 25th Birthday!" You guys should "down for the beer". They were shock and shout it loud and the "Sotong", jumped off from hammock and ran to me for a hug and apology cause he forgot this.

"Of course I understand he has tonne of duties but when you see his kind of enjoying chatting & drinking, I tell you ... none of the Gf will forgive him".I'm so upset with this, at that moment I'm so regret for my appearance, I should have stay in KL or to HK alone instead of getting the tickets forfeited. Anyhow, I'm still smile at him... I keep telling myself "He is busy, stressed and he should be forgiven"

9 days trip, spent 3 days in the Rainforest's Music Festival most of the time I'm hanging with some friends..CC..ED...KH..

On the Saturday itself I felt a bit slow of the day and nothing much special happened just a birthday toast from the Kuching friends. Had a sweaty day and feeling dizzy and slept earlier when back in hotel. Hence the guys had some men's talk at the pool side.

Sunday, DP & I had been invited for a cruise trip by Bob. Went on board with some friends and to an island so called "Jetski Island". A good experience for this trip, swimming in the sea having jet ski, drinking champagne it's just so enjoyed! Anyhow, some words and question have made me worried & perhaps think too much.

"I don't know how also, sometimes I don't know how and when you were waiting in KL. Perhaps I'm not ready... so How?..."

What's the problem now? I don't understand, just tell! argh...

Throughout the 4-6 days, feeling depressed. What's the matter now, working pressures, stress or commitment phobia or changes happened? Should or shouldn't mention & bring this up for a good chat?All these are the big big question mark!

Most of the activities for this trip are drinking and eating plus working on some email stuffs. Had a chance visited to some new hangout place. Saturday night with the heavy heart, DP decided to have dinner with a bottle of wine after the DVD session. Tried to have a good chat after some wine but questions still a myth...

Me and Myself...

2009-06-24T20:00:00.003+08:00

After the March holidays I had and last week I've travel to East Malaysia again. Although everyone is worrying for influenza HINI lately but I still keep my attendance to the high risk venue "Airport". I should be happy with the leaves approved by my boss but I felt restless. It could be too much of uncertainty on my mind.

I felt tiring with my life... I just don't why! Lost of balance and gain on weight may be...

I'm glad that on my career path with boss assists I learn something for the past few months. Now, my revenue went to the slop and facing the downturn. I'm so worried but yet don't know what to do. No doubt, I'm having some negative thoughts. I'm lossing direction again... I want to back on track but HOW???

I DON'T KNOW!!!

I missed the Italian babe and my dearest DDP lately, I found myself changed. I wanted to be independent and strong but sometimes I just feel myself spoiled by "you". Been telling myself I can do it myself but sometimes I just weak there are too much burden on me and may be the increasing of my age has caught me to worry about my own financial planning. I can't event made a simple decision myself.

Tried not think with the word "IF" but that's the FACT... I just wish to get off from the bloody "$" OUT OF MY WAY and you idiot just stay away from my life forever as when I think of this I can't forgive myself. Without the trouble you brought I can be in Peace.
Oh baby, I'm gonna cooling down as I promised not to mention this again ... but this made me frustrated and up set ...I can't forgive myself with this... stupid me!!! arghhhhhh......

Out of the hundred things, there is one thing that I felt happy at least... oh ya the NewJapanese Babe! I really hope that I can have it as soon as I can and I can return the older Japanese babe to the family. I love the older Japanese Babe too but no point fighting and borrowing from them. Sharing among us but maintenance by ME. I'm the one who support them but NONE of them understand me and why I still need to contribute and support them??? Sometimes I rather stay late in the office, went gym, hanged out with friends and over to the east. Why do I need to take the burden myself? I'm not the only one earning or working? I contribute the most but I just need to have a spaces and some cares, can I?

Do I have the rights to at least speak louder at home? I wish to have something different on my blog instead of the problems. Looking at others blog, it make me pissed off with myself. From day one till now, my life seems never improve...still...

It's not easy!

2009-04-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

Mount Kinabalu 27032009

We have made it to the Low's Peak... it's not easy!!!

Out of Planed!!!

2009-03-07T02:20:00.002+08:00

Initially I felt so tiring... "Family, Career, nor other matter which surrounded me!!!" I felt weak sometimes... things happened and most important was the me now is not me compared last times... I've changed alotzzz... Changed to be really realistics... especially for better lifstyle...

I'm just bored with what I'm doing now...Percisely "it's time to walk forward for different level; and YES, I need to be more patient as I wanted to achieve more this year especially when I flashed back what I have did for last year... I've no idea at all what I've learnt or what the bigger thing that I have achieve.... ya... the only one was getting along with "L" finally... and switch job!

Sometimes I just felt demotivated... I work hard and harder but still i'm stepping on the same stone... I just want to have my own things and still yet to afford that!

元宵节之“牛”记 ~~ Chap Goh Mei D last day of lunar new year!!!

2009-02-09T15:53:00.006+08:00

After 14th days of Lunar New Year Celebration...today will be the last day and is Chap Goh Mei... also we known as Chinese Valentine's Day!!!
I've started work on the 8th day of cny,nothing much to do for this new year as companion had back to the east for work... At the same time I found CNY was a bit bored to me as I growth elder.
As usual on the first day of cny celebration was visiting my Grandma and some relatives but this year was special as my dad follow us for the visiting. We had a trip to Ipoh for visiting but unfortunately the friend has admited to the hospital and mum and I have donated blood for him... Hope he can get well soon...

My dearest was falled sick on the 2nd and 3rd days. Hence nothing much to do until the 6th day onwards only lotz of planned... but still to me quite bored! Perhaps next CNY I will planned to celebrate overseas. For this "niu" /new year, I don't find any lion dance nor chinese celebration much in town is just too quite... wondering is that because of the impact of Financial Crisis.

flips...flips today is the last day of CNY...

I'm focused more on my career, family...wish my parent always happy and healthy...

“恭喜发财；迎春接福”

2009-01-23T14:30:00.007+08:00

~~~ Happy Lunar Year ~~~

Wishing all my beloved Family members, Darling & dearest friends;

Properous "niu" year with wealth & health!!!

恭祝大家：

年年有余，新春佳节横财就手，身体健康，幸福满天下。。。

恭喜发财；红包满满拿来！！！

Congrat.to the newly weds couple!!!

2009-01-19T02:36:00.015+08:00

"Congratulation Mr Bobby & Shentel"

Had been invited for a wedding dinner @Kuching...The lovely couple Bob & Shentel is finally attached with a huge party on the east coast!

Their wedding ceremony might be the Dreamz Wedding for most of the ladies from the wedding... personally I like the wedding decoration in Australia better... simple and warm. As for the Kuching wedding, it might be too much of Lantern and too packed... but it's nice too.

Get to meet up with some of the friend and people I met during my 1st visit. Everyone was super tension when I first arrived included Mr Lim. Work from 7 to midnight...and even morning for the super event of Bob's Wedding function.

Arrived on Thurs midnight, on the same flight there already few of the passenger was being invited for the wedding dinner... hahaha :) Dedicated driver picked me up from the airport with his working attire and we get back to the apartment resting for tomorrow big day!

630am Woke up for the preparation... while I was still zzzzz with my sweet dream...

730am Buzz me for the ceremony back in Bob's house... but I refuse to wake up....CONT. zzzz

1130am Baby back from the morning sessions... and back for a nap....

3.30pm Lunch @ Four Point Eatery and met the MC "Tian" & the "GROOM" he is still working during his wedding day...

6pm Getting reading for the big event at Four Point Hotel... make-up and dressed up had took bout 1 1/2 hours... Dearest came back and pick me up for the dinner.

Arrived on the lobby entrance... welcomed with the drum by 6 drummers, walking on the Red carpet bout 200meters long from the entrance to the grand ballroom was like celebrities kinda welcome and photographer stand by for photo shooting beside the aisle of the red carpet. Holding Mr Lim hand and we walked together as some of the staffs greet us while passing by. Finally we are here at the ballroom doorstep was lotz of people having a chat and waiting for the wedding dinner to be start...

Dearest Mr Lim walked me around to introduce me to the staffs and some business associate partners of him. Thank you for giving me these opportunities to meet up with all your friends and colleagues,babe! It's my pleasure to know more and learn more! Finally Mr Kong arrived and among all of them he will be the only one I familiar with... we stand together and had a chat with Loong's gang. Looked around, there were lotz of the women in chilli red dresses where I had finally chosen the one with black based. I like my dress and thank you baby for spent me such an expensive dress I have never had. Hope you like the dress I had wore for the function too...& thank you for the dressess!

@ Wedding Dinner on the Red Carpet...shiok!!!

Ballroom lounge deco with Chinese lanterns and full of new year mood. Dinner began at 8 plus, guests invited to the ballroom with drums. Our seats was table 40 but ended up 43 as some of them had taken out seats. Patrick has give me a hand to get a seat.

Dinner start with an appetizer salad and prawns... then as usual served with White wine or red wine, beer and etc... MC start with greeting and then wait for the VVIP arrival again for the main course to be served.

VVIP arrived at 9 ish and main course served , choose either beef or fish as it will be served alternately. I had the fish but as the portion was so little I think most of the guest not enough for it though. While the main course served, Tan Sri was giving a speech and after the speech was the toasting session from the new wed's couple. Mc Tian had invite the couple for game and all about the "female frog and lubricant (Baby oils)" Then Dr. Lincoln gave a speech. A local singer had been invited as the performer for a few songs after Dr. Lincoln speech.

Well well well... the real wedding party starts right after VVIP left... and chefs have made some porridge for us... Guess what? Everyone who attended the party had few bow of porridge...Me, myself have 2 bows.

Yeah is party time!!!

Last 2 days in Kuching....having fun...

Doggie Are Human Best Friends!!! Agreed!!!

2009-01-15T13:54:00.002+08:00

Ever since the accident falled off from my bicycle when I was 9 yrs old... slight changed to my life. From I dont like doggie till I like to have doggie as pet at home. At first when people said doggie can be human best friends but I never agreed, now it's proved that it's real.Never says never. Unconsciously, I started loving my doggie. I have 2 doggie named "Bobby & Ruby"... they are now apart of our family members.

Lately, I had a very bad feeling that bobby will be leaving me very soon as he is getting skinny and skinny... no appetite and not active and energetic. We safe his life when he was 3 months old from an accident in front of my house. I still remember on the same date my parent had accident and mom hurt her nose due to emergency break. Bob, had some hard times and poor little puppy have to start his painful life since 3 months old.

I have covered him with my t-shirt and hugged him tightly in my arms and tell him that everything will be fine. I can see from his eyes how painful he is...and tears... Now, he is old and weak...all these year he becomes our companion especially for me.

I really hope that BOB can recover and at least stay with us for longer...

High Cost Investment!!!

2009-01-15T11:42:00.006+08:00

Never spent such a huge amount for dinner dresses man! Due to the superstars wedding invitation which will held on 16th Jan. I've been looking for a red dresses from the Klang Valley for monthsss... finally got it with a girlfriend who have same name as my chinese name "li leng" hahaha... from one of the boutique in "One u"

The billed statement hahahaha....

"Thank you my dear as when I needed my DDP the most you are here to help and advise me!!!"

Muah muah muah... Crystal... Oh my Crystal!!!

But still I found the Dresses were expensive... Although I like it... and although DP sponsor me....Hopes DP like it...

It's said the Fabric made in Italy... really???

09 New Year Celebration @ East Coast!!!

2009-01-13T00:54:00.008+08:00

For the very first time... DDP on the east!!!

After the trip down to Singapore I went to East Coast for New Year! To me... there are lotz of the 1st time...

1st time to Kuching
1st time to had dinner with VVIP
1st time had sharks fins with chopsticks
1st for Sarawak Laksa
1st time to have "Empura Fish" (If not mistaken with the name and it cost RM600/KG)
1st time Chinese tradition foot massage
1st time ..... erm... had close door New Year Celebration 2009.
&
Last but not least... the most important...
1st time "WE" celebrate new year together!!!

I really wish that this can be the first time we celebrate together and the rest of the new year we can celebrate together...

New Year countdown @ Junk Bar

Although we never spent too much time together but I enjoyed the trip a lotz...
Thank you!

My journey Down to the South; Fly to the East!!!

2009-01-03T17:09:00.018+08:00

After 2 week apart, finally met in South... We are pretty fine even apart. Perhaps, I'm used to it as he travel frequently. No doubt, I had cut down lotz of the happy hour or after work activities... but still guys and gal you are welcome to buzzz me man!!! and AGAIN.... I am okay although my Prince working hard and in the WAR on the East Coast!

Season's Greeting... Merry Christmas!!!
Had a Christmas Celebration in Singapore... For you, I drove the italian babe all the way down to the south and to Singapore. 4 hours drive and 1 hour traffic jam at Tuas custom, but still manage to get you in the airport. My first time drove all the way to Changi Airport in Singapore. I thought I will be very very "gen cheong" but in fact I'm quite steady when I saw DDP.Was so happy to see each other!

Here we start our celebration in Singapore...for Christmas...

"~Celebrating 08' Christmas @ Sg with DDP~"

We stayed in one of the Budget Hotel near Vivo City... check in and placed all the baggage in the room and had dinner in Vivo City; such a huge shopping mall with lotz of variety of food... at last we had dinner in "Marche"...

Lighting deco outside the courtyard...after the side seeing and quick shopping in Vivo city... we heading back to hotel and take a rest before we heading out again...

tic toc tic toc~~~~

It's time to pick "hihi" from her house...suppose to have some drinks but the "hihi" not as happening people as "Crystal". She brought us around but all the bar or shops was closed!!! aiks... walk all the way down to cafe del ma but the bar was cloased. Still I managed to snap a photos...it's nice but huh!!! I think I will not go in to this place anymore.... "Should say thanks to Ms Pat." but sorry to Cafe del ma...

Heavy rain in the midnight til morning...well... it's "Christmas Eve" we had breakfast at Kampung Bharu- "Shanghai Food" meet up with Liew and had a chat... we had "tou fu fa" and shop at Paragon. Unfortunately all the shops closed at 6pm so we can't get anything. Met up with Nor... and she told us to try the "YU LOU BOU"...

~ Fish Head Soup!!! ~

After the dinner we went back change and ready for party... but it's starts rain again... this time we head down to "Clark Quay"...We countdown in the car while on the way to the destination... Arrived and saw lotz of people and smoke... who said singaporean not smoking... here was like hell... smokes around...
We bought ourselves bottles of beer... walking around and enjoy the beer... after that was heading to "Gelang" but I falled asleep in the car...hehe :) effort wasted! The next day, heading down to town to shop... Was looking for a dress for BOB wedding, saw one was fitted and nice... guess what?? it cost ~SG$900 converted will be almost RM2K plus..."Nicole Miller"... I will not buy that... anyway... we went into the branded shops with the long queue... things there not cheap and compare dollars to dollars can get cheaper in KL...

Activities which kept me busy!

2008-12-19T10:50:00.011+08:00

It had been 2 weeks.... so fast!!! Thank god that I'm busy with works and events lately...now can't wait to see you back and we celebrate the Christmas together... hooray!!!

Just to re-cap what I have did last 2 weeks...

Having fun for the damn expensive Movie @Garden Gold Class

Have fun and busy with entertained the clients... The movie was quite bored but the seats were comfy provided with the blanket and pillows. Anyway, this will be the experience for the expensive tickets I've ever had for movie. After the event we we had dinner cum support at Bangsar... yea... dinner at 1am lucky boss annouced we can back in office in the afternoon.

~~Annual Dinner cum Christmas Party on Friday night~~

Woo... everyone was on party mood today as we celebrate the Annual dinner cum Christmas Party. We will be having a party at Passion Road with the theme of "Enchanted Night" Ha d some great time for the annual dinner as we had lucky draw and games...

OMG~~~ our Costume~~~

Tight activities schedule for the past few weeks...

2008-12-02T14:09:00.005+08:00

Ever since the new spread, all the happening activities seem to be on the "q"... Times fly with all the events slot into our tight schedule... Happy to have the "A1 GP" last 2 week... that was the 1st time I step in to Sepang Grand Stand; Shopping and dinner... partying etc etc...

"A1 GP @ Sepang"

Now only I realized how fun it is...even just only A1 GP... was so so so excited especially when they passing by in front of you ; DIFFERENT feeling when you watch from TV. Although is hot and get sun burn but still happy with the experience we had. I believed F1 will definately better. Hope I will have another chance for F1 soon. :p

We were fully utilized our times together, I will be good and take care of myself and you do have to take good care of yourself though... I will be supportive all the times... for you!!! As promised, we need to work hard together for better life... I will remember the theory of "Balance"

Busy with contributing to Malaysia Market!

2008-12-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

Shoppe with the warehouse sales & the Malaysia Sales last weekend...I've yet to start with the Christmas sales shopping but we are broke....so called!!! Although everyone is talking about Global Financial Crisis and the impact it will bring to us started with recession and retrenchment but still we decided to contribute some $$$$ at least... I think you guys should contribute some perhaps!

Woke up early in the morning and started with the ordinary shopping planned in the afternoon! Extremely tired as we shoppe from afternoon till late at night but both of the DDP happy spending from one complex to another and infact we had some great times!Planned to have party after the shopping but can't make it at last as both of the DDP was exhausted so we decided to fold back and recharge for tomorrow. Had a shower, falled on the bed while hair still wet... yaya going to be crazy... Next morning, the very first thing appearred on our mind is WAREHOUSE sales that we have missed yesterday. Therefore we dressed up and go all the way down to town again. I really found that we are crazy shopaholic as we can shoppe from morning without breakfast until late in the evening again and this time we spent few hours just in a small ballroom. I'm not too sure about the buying power for the warehouse sales but as what I can see in the ballroom was extremely packed...Manage to get ourselves some working attires and some t-shirt but the watches we purchased will be the highlight items.... it's CHEAP!Very very cheap!

Now, I should start the saving again... for my wish list!...

Refreshing "Toffee Nuts Latte!!!"

2008-11-13T17:43:00.004+08:00

Feeling frustrated and screwed up with all the pending status from clientele...

Having a break in the old place where DDP met each others... sat on the same old seats but alone!!! Everything seem happened last nite when I flashed back my memories... well one year has past. Looking forward is a must to improve. I gonna make sures I'm walking forward and keep improving. Sometimes, I felt that I'm so glad to have a balance of families, companion and career... Friendship wise I still have to put in some effort though...

Toffee Nuts Latte in Starsbuck is back... and Christmas is at the corner too!!! I love Christmas... Wish my dream will come truth!!! Switzerland... coffee, ski and holidays! and Hooray!

Shake Shake Shake... damn... please leave me Alone!

2008-11-04T01:01:00.003+08:00

M= Meeting!!! Couldn't sleep well yesterday night...

Early in the morning, was rushing out to work especially on Monday.Mind was pretty sober while sleeping... zzzzz...Argh!!!

As usual open the car door, the bloody "Lizard" dropped off from dunno heaven or where else to my right hand and "pop" on the car seat and disappear in action to the carpet in the car...This is really a HUGE one man! I am rushing and I have no choice gonna bump in to the car no matter what!!

Moment with fear and rush... Luckily the VIP was not appear in the car while driving...

Now, on the way back home afterworks... Off work quite late as I was worried that if stuck in the traffic jam it will come out again! Decided to stay in office and work lil late. Now only I know not all the man can catch Lizards!!! Hahahaha... I stopped at car wash and I've spent RM13 for car wash and vacum but still can't locate the bloody Lizard until I back home mum saw it still stick on the back mirror and cause all of them trying to catch it ended up it's tails dropped off but still can't get it out of my car!!!

HELP!!! HELP!!! HELP!!!

Bloody Lizards...

What happened on the last day of Oct 2008???

2008-11-03T00:22:00.005+08:00

Time flies... man ... it's Nov!!!

31st Oct ... could be a day with history that we had never experience in our past before... No plan and it had lead us to... "It's just stupid!!!"Was exhausted lately, energy low!!! Usually, we will be happy when Friday comes hanging out with friends, lazying at home, and cuddle cuddle with the lovely darling. I felt so tired lately just don't know why... perhaps I'm weak or I couldn't sleep well lately.

Supposed to have dinner with Mrs YK and plan for a drinks with Frenz... ended up...I'm lazy and being so comfy on the sofa watching tv programmes. I will be glad that if we can have a coffee or quiet place for a chat... no BEER or Liquor please... May be my face expression/emotion brought up the wrong message and lead us to the.... F...T!!! moreover with some stupid reason...

I felt so so so damn sleepy and don't feel like going out anymore!!! I know that you wanted to go out and I am absolutely agree that " Wow, it's Friday night man!!! Don't waste it and both of us always looking forward to Friday!"

Darling, I'm just tired! Brain tight and can't think off any plan or I should said NOT IN MOOD!

Sorry that I had spoil your mood and thanks you for allow me to sleep with hunger!!! :P But please do not wake me up every half an hour for the speech and telling me that we need to talk!!! Felt suffocated... it just like sunday morning I wake you up so early!!! Anyway, when I flashed back all the stupid fight it's just because me equal to Piggy!

Actually, when on the way back I was thinking shall we had a movie or a coffee. But the colour on your face telling me forget about it unconciously. oh! what colour on your face??? Grey!!!

Past is past!!! Will remember the fight on Saturday too!!! kekeke... u owe me!!!ya!! Gonna miss you always!

After 10 yrs!!! It comes short again!

2008-10-04T04:02:00.006+08:00

Had been quite a while I never had short Hairstyle... Now is short with 80's hairstyle... happy with it... but I have to spend more time to blow with the hair dryer as I have lil bit of natural waivy...

The very 1st time!!! But it's okay!

2008-09-22T19:02:00.005+08:00

THIS Blog SUPPOSE BE PUBLISH on 19th Sept. why???

Delayed of the posting...

It's a very first time where the arguement for no reason... yea,always my fault -"WELL IT SEEMS TO BE?" From the explaination GIVEN it seems like I've no way to FIGHT BACK with my point or to prove it whether is right nor most of the times I'm the only party who made it and brought up with PROMBLEMS... At first I thought I'm wrong and listen to the explanation and I ADMITTED, YES... your point is RIGHT!!! Slowly, I don't even know how to evaluate where is my standing point and I will start assume I AM always WRONG & MOST IMPORTANTLY I never evaluate...

Was a little tired with work, had a gathering with the team and yet to know what the plan for the night yet. I just can't decide whether wanted to join or what the estimate time to arrive home. Phone rang and asking about the plan while walking; Call back and it's start with the minor miscommunication. Human behave like that I understand... GONE in to the car and call back with one hand driving and turning the steering. Well, "on the way with plan" so I am okay to go back... Home!!! Phone rang!!! Yea, sorry that I'm MAD...WITH TIRENESS & TRAFFIC JAM perhaps a reason... Speak with incorrect or not a very proper tone and it's SILENT... few mins... SORRY!!! Things complete with FullSTOP!!!!

aiks... "Tumpang" and arrived...

Begin with... GroupOf "StranGer, Idiots or Frenzz"

People who act like cannot see you but in fact a friend of you.... haha... funny, well as usual la... they will only invite while request for contribution or donation to the pool of party fund..or may be help for paying or settlement of bills...

"No one will died without anyone"

Never Gonna let you GO baby!!!

2008-09-19T16:54:00.003+08:00

The DDP was under the pressure of work... had been working late lately for the project and I'm absolutely understand the challenges faced. Stayed cool and believe in ourselves... together we work on it!!!;)

I promised will never let you go...

... always with stay side by side for the challenges...

It's killing me... sigh...

2008-09-04T18:59:00.004+08:00

Had a bad day... everything in a mess... screw up the thing sigh...

Time limited work it out okay!!!

"Packed Schedule + Pressure Life = Standard Of Leaving"

2008-08-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

Had a very tight schedule last week as some of the professional trainer visited our team in M'sia last week...Full with schedules and activities... entertainment and training sessions...

Infact, this is a great opportunity for me to communicate and learn from them especially for my assigned tasks.Hopes I will not dissappoint you boss, of course I will keep the learning and working momentum on and on and on... to move the bell and create the momentum is hard but once the bell moving is easier... I understand this! :)

Well, trainers have left this week but another will be coming next week for another programme... "on and off", they are visited us.I should start working hard for next year plan from now onwards.In order for me to achieve more I'ld start working hard ... planning is the key for me nowadays and "yeah" I am pretty weak in this areas...while "prince" may give me a hand on this.I'm sure!

"Start to plan for "09" and work on the plans "

It's Monday again

A brand new week, start all over again with the activities.

Everything looks fine but the "m" issue has brought my hit to the brain... They are too much and I'm exhausted with the problems... No matter how much I had contribute stillthey will complaint... What a mess from!

"I just want to get rid of the difficulities;to have had some peace with better life... I can't work it out by myself, I can't do all this alone, support every single one of you on my own. You guys should know how to work things out as a member; how to move to the better situation.Things happened again and again, can't you all just think, why the situation still the same; remain unchange? As the elder, you should play your parts to resolve and work out with the solutions. My burdens is so much more than what's in your mind. I had my own thing and plan to work with... Just to force me to let go all of you... I'm really tired with these... "

C & G Highland Trip ~~~ Relax Trip!!!

2008-07-30T19:23:00.007+08:00

2nd week of the Birthday Celebration~~~ to Cameron Highland

It had been almost 19 years I never been to Cameron Highland... I can't even recall how it looks and the weather in Cameron. Had a nice trip and infact a trip stuff with food... I like the cold whether in Cameron Highland...

The Green scene attracted me... visited the Tea Farm, Vege Farm and strawberries farm and etc...

Huge Strawberries!!!

"Cancer Baby Princess's Birthday Celebration '08 "

2008-07-16T13:59:00.021+08:00

"Thank you for all of your wishes, I felt so happy!!!"

Start celebrating my birthday since 10th July with important one. Small slice of cake and a cutie "Piggy" Simple but sweet...

Pre celebration...

"huu....huu..." Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Yeah~~~ Piggy...??? Who ???hehe

~~~ July 11~~~

As usual went to work... felt dizzy and make myself a coffee and had breakfast, all the pretty ladies in the office wish me Happy Birthday!!!
Door bell rang and my cute Coordinator shout " Vanessa, someone send you the surprise" Hence, everyone came to my place and share the joy with me... jealousy?? hahaha... yeah, my dear send me flowers... (but is smaller than last year one la)...

Lunch time~~~ Dearest Ladies in the office invite me for a lunch.... @ Thai Club...

Thought of buy them lunch but unfortunately I left my wallet in Baby's car... well they have to buy me instead... "paiseh" =_+"

Times passed really fast... 7777 and the owner picked me up sharp at 6.30 pm and ready for dinner...where??? Mistery place!!!

~~Dinner @7-11~~

Had dinner at Le-Meridian in Prime. I was extremely full cause "someone" stuff me with lots of food...

Bread serve with Vinegar and Olive Oil (Our Favourite)

Appetizer: Lobster Soup

Main Course: "KOBE Beef"
Is my first time to have KOBE Beef... it's delicious... yummy yummy...

Served with 3 side dishes: Mashed Potatoes, Vege and Mushroom

A bottle of RED Wine

"Kobe Beef"

yeah... expensive dinner!!! $$$$$

Having Tea in Hilton with close friends... enjoy with the music and coffees...

Hang out with friend until 2am in the morning and back home...

Well I have my birthday Travelling trip as well... to C.Highland...

n_n BliNk...Blink... AnOtheR yr Gon3!

2008-07-10T14:31:00.005+08:00

23 ++

Had bring back all my sweet memories back... especially LAST birthday...

I still remember all the messages stated in the Greeting Cards... from day 1 to day 7th. Ya... it's sweetssss... they is one of the message stated in the SOMETHING LIKE THIS.....

".....to spend the rest of my birthday together......" hehe :P

ermmmm....what do you think now???

Contribution is Rewarded!!!

2008-07-02T19:14:00.004+08:00

5 more days... I can feel my contribution is being rewarded at least ... different tasks and lots of daily activities... Happy Learning!!!

Was busy with lately with the Tasks and the dates... really happy with what I have and who I am now. Square is going to be stable again after the stupid fool period has past long long time ago... Working life has filled up most of my times rest of my time spent with DDP. :P

Well, next what I'm going to do will be... I may spend more time with Family... Had breakfast with Dad. He looks older and I wish my lovely parent can stay in "Pink Of Health" as long as they can...

Now... looking into the aim for next year January...

"Life go Up and Down"

2008-05-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

"Look at this......"Life Go Up & Down"....words written on the sand...

Know that there are lotz of pressure and unnecessary stress come to you from different angle lately... Just be patience and everything will get over very very soon... I trust you and you know yourself the best... You can get them off...

The ants hardly climb up to the top of the sand hills and because of they are too tiny when the wind blow they falled easyly but they never give up and kept climbing until they climb up to the top again...this process they do it again and again until they succeed... we have to learn this from the little creature...

I have my so called down time too...time will past and hopefully everything back to normal...

I'm Back to a Lazy Worm... since last Friday!!! hehe

2008-05-12T18:20:00.002+08:00

I'm back in ordinary mode: "Lazy Worm..." worked in Strabucks while waiting for the VVIP DDP ... :P ...Finally is Saturday again... exhausted for this week...should relax myself and yeah...be wild perhaps haha....

Realized that the weekend time is shorter... Attended my dear friend Mimi & Anson ROM last saturday. They are so sweet and lovely. "Congratulation to both of you la... still remember the trip that tight a knot on both of you..." After the ceremony, rush all the way to Kepong for mothers day celebration at Grandma place... Although, something happened to mum and I but I still attend as for respect. Everything as usual and we had dinner but in different table.

Wow, rush for the 2nd round with DDP, ya ya night still young and moreover we are so young too... Chill at "7atenine" with friends and back home for supper... schedule was so tight but happy with the activities...well, sunday.... zzzzzz and watching drama series....

wHat A Day...

2008-05-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

Thought I will have a pleasant Friday... well... thing just out of controll sometimes

Early in the morning came out from my house on the way to work and half way I found out that I have forgotten my wallet, I left it in the yoga bag... U-turn and I'm late to work. Thought everything will be fine after that but a call in and complain for the SA and the office number invalid and etc etc...Sometimes I was wondering all this act smart but in fact stupid women whether they can understand language! Helo is ENGLISH... I spoken in English... Small matter can argue and make it so difficult.

"c" pls think before you open your mouth... People trying to explain then listen la... else don't seek for explaination okay???

Apologized for the troublesome... may everything okay and we may done the remaining jobs to complete the duties...I will try my best to understand and reduce the unnecessaries mistake...

Because of this small matter had made me run up and down with boss to settle the problems... sigh... Facial cancelled and all my plans cancelled cause of the Dark Skin Colour Lady..."nie nie" :P

Thank god tomorrow is Saturday... spend time for myself better... then WORK!!!

"Life" is getting harder...with work???

2008-05-08T09:42:00.005+08:00

I'm growing... the world outside is different... yea, of cause about work!!!

Pretty busy with the work and I am trying so hard to learn and to improve. So many thing to do and too little time to get things done...How I wish I will have 48 hours a day instead 24... Workload a lot and still have to spend lotzzzz of time to understand the process flow. "GOD,Please help me!!!" thing from A TO Z,I got to understand and got to know!
"Come on Vanessa just learn and explore more okay? Things will working very well very soon...", ya this is how I told myself... and it's truth!!! Focus focus and focus... yea I know you will be there protect and care of me!!!my lucky star!

Well perhaps this is a gateway to improve my standard of leaving if I take it Positively!!! ;)

So sick and so enjoy!!!

2008-04-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

Last friday was the 1st gathering that I had with the new colleagues, we had steamboat at Evelyn's house and our boss joined us for the gathering as well. As compared to last time we hardly have the gathering where involve our Boss... haha...well yes... we have fun!!!

After the hot hot steamboat and we have fun, then I was sick yesterday, thank you for being so caring to me!!!After the bowling on Friday night then I exhausted perhaps the Steamboat haha... :P

Although I have had falled sick but I'm quite enjoy with the weekend I felt sick actually. Why??? I attended the Kenny G concert held in Genting with my best buddies and his wife and Prince...
"thanks for the tickets again and we really enjoy the concert..."thanks ya!! Hopefully will recover soon else ... hehe!!! my trip... aih!!! :(

Another week gone...

2008-04-25T18:30:00.002+08:00

Another week past... still unable to fully manage the work... Need more patience and focus...

It's the 3rd week, hope the thing will get on hand as fast as posible... Got to learn and fuction my Brain...

Looking forward for my trip... hehe :P

Day"s" Of My Life...

2008-04-11T19:22:00.004+08:00

Well had started for a week... yeah...Was busy with work ... Full of training and reading...hmm... schedule was extremely packed...

"New learning process begun with Training...Nowadays technology may leads us to another era and moving towards the "e"' generation. My life was fulled of training. WHat??? Trained via Conferencing Audio and Web Conferencing... from other countries and speaking leh with mat salleh. This can be a very good experience I believed. I wish with this new career and able to bring me to another level...

New working environment of course have to take times and to get use to it. Besides, I am well prepare to face the politics but hopes lesser... please.. I will just do my own part... Keep learning, keep walking and don't look back.... Vanessa...

Forget about the fool he had brought to you and make you suffering... The pain you gave will remember for the rest of the life.Thanks for you guys(lier perhaps :P)!!! To me I have had learnt something from this mistake but for both of you ... I'm afraid you still turning in the same old circle..."same old shit man" things or statement both of you given was fake... When a child made a mistake will always hide behind and have no courage to admit but once other found out the fact they will at least know how to say sorry and correct from mistake... don't you guys feel ashame...

"Sunshine" -You have brought me to another stage by walked through all the difficult times I had faced with me. No matter we are being hurt or hurt others, as you mentioned times will always be the best solution. Life can be so easy and can be so hard too... If we make it in a hard way then it will definately hard... but when we treat it easier it can be easier...From day to day...u had light up my day... No more rain!!! I promised not to look back... I know what I want... Come across all the sadness and mistakes... I am finally growth...

Sunshine had given me so many great times... :P

Well next blog I will share about my latest trip...

Started with the "New Journey of Living"

2008-03-25T16:19:00.004+08:00

It could be a lil slow to have the new year revolution... but still I managed to have it...at last. About the balance of square I think I have to learn and "yes" I'm haeding towards that... thanks Liew for giving me the opinion... You are absolutely right " New year resolution, to get rid of HIM and bictchy..." I did it... probally a lil late but I did it!

I've start with my new career path... All I want now is focus... You no longer belong to my square because you destroyed everything and you want it that way I gif it... You had betrayed me and breach of the rule of the game... well still I'l say thank you ... Learning is the rewards I learnt from the game with you ... Oh no worries, I will make sure you and "J" stayed far away from my life from now on... reason so easy... huge differences on Level...

I want to archieve what I want and moving forward... I'm learning but both of you ? I don't think so...You are the one don't know what you want. Yeah, happy together time will past very very fast... you will know what the fruits you will get end of the day! Sooner or later you deserve it....

"Learnt from mistake but never repeat the mistake" that the correct way to improve....

Perhaps is a Hint...to me!!!

2008-02-26T22:49:00.001+08:00

I have read this from the Horoscope daily updates....

"The Bottom Line"

You are always careful in business deals -- start being more careful in romance now.

You are always smart enough to be careful in business deals, but how careful have you been in romantic negotiations? Past pain could have been caused by careless generosity, so if you want to prevent yourself from getting hurt again in the future, go slower. A new person is an exciting thing, but what's your hurry? They are interested -- and they are not going anywhere unless you tell them to. Don't give them only green lights when yellow would be much more appropriate (for now).

Too much Care may lead to failure in relationship.....

2008-02-13T21:15:00.004+08:00

Just trying to care , love or understand more... Never thought that this could lead the situation to the end of story... Yea perhaps it's because of too much care and understand given may lead the other party felt suffocate or pressures... but it's just CARE. It's shown how much you care and how deep is your LOVE!!!

Sometimes, give and take is a must in the relationship...growing together, creation of sweet memories is a part of the process to make thing works built long run relationship... Security and Trust have to be tight up together all the time. If betrayed from one of the party, we have to think whether we will be able to give and take... and when choose to forgive it has to be really mean it... BUT the other one may need to built and give more security more trust to overcome the problem together and stay together... make sure mistake happened only once ....ONCE...

During the "Rat" year, nothing much on the CNY celebration. Basically, visited Grandma and relatives. Angpow to me doesn't really important to me as compared last time. Family reunion is the most important during the CNY celebration. Was really tired visited around...

The most meaningful and special day for me during the CNY was the day 3 of CNY.The first time I went for a prayer in a real ordinary chinese temple in Ipoh. The temper with 100 over year of the history. I don't really know where is the place for me to put on the josstick...haha... Doing all this just wishing "Rat" year ME this baby rat good good luck... Healthy, Wealthy... Good in Relationship and all good good good.... hahaha

Well... a shock on Day 7... While everyone is celebrating the "Everyone Birthday" Day ... mum handbag snatch buy a motorcyclist while mum and I was having lunch at Dataran Sunway Mas... Incident happened when we are having lunch and hugging our bag tight on our arm as we are sitting next to each other. Out of sudden, there is a man with helmet walk against us get my mum bag face to face... The other motorcyclist was waiting on the bike, oh ya... It's Malay... those fucker really dare to do so... we scream and trying to get the bag but they seem like they have weapon. Report to the police and get the lost license and Identity card done. But my beloved Camera lost ... I'm sad and the memory card...LOST... Camera doesn't really matter but the memory card... well it's not important may be no appreciation also... called but no feeling of CARE...

Tomorrow is "Valentine", me??? No plan as for time being... you guys may enjoy the Valentine together ... hmmm... hope those who enjoy the Valentine enjoy the day you have...

Valentine...

2008-02-12T16:52:00.001+08:00

This was the Postpone blog from me about the "Valentine 2008"

Appreciated for the 2008 Valentine Celebration... as this had also reminded my last Valentine Day...

"No Doubt"... my Valentine getting special from year to year...my Life is getting better with... Thank you!!!

Thank you for every special arrangement, I'm so lucky...

Love all the special arrangement...

Brand new Life...at last... found that it's NOT!

2008-01-28T15:58:00.004+08:00

Suppose today was a good new beginning for me.... and in FACT it's the turning point of my dayS also... why? "Betrayed!!!"

Talking about the good side.... I have changed job and today was my new life begin with new environment... everything start from "0" the ground... I'm happy to have this new environment, NEW OPPORTUNITY given by senior... early in the morning was so excited and woke up so early although I stuck in the unsual jam STILL with a smile...

Everything was in order, from set up the PC, networking , welcome lunch and even studying the background for most of the time... and "YES" is lil free therefore I surf on the internet and update my blog and site visiting... wow... I found something " F%$&king" excited ... but not for work... all about bitchy with dirty "C**k"

Sorry that I'm rude... but it's really "unforgiveable"...okay??? Get Lost of my way idiot and bitchy "j"

Women's Health - Urinary Infection

2008-01-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

Well, found out that quite lotz of the women these days easily get urinaty infection and myself have had experinces this few weeks back... was killing me... looking around for the solution and found the below was helpful info. Wish to share with all of you...

Urinary Infections

The female body is a beautiful design, but the location and pathway of the urethra - the tube through which urine flows out of the bladder - is a set-up for infections.
Unlike that of men (which is situated along the entire length of the penis), in women the urethra is shorter and close to the rectum, an area loaded with bacteria. No matter how clean you are, your anatomy alone places you at a greater risk than men for urinary tract infections, aka UTIs.

If you've had a UTI, then you know the symptoms very well. On the other hand, a young woman who's having her first infection can be quite frightened if she doesn't understand her symptoms and fears going to the doctor. Let's run through some of the common symptoms of UTIs:

Discomfort or burning with urination
Frequent need to urinate
Cramping or aching pain in the lower abdominal area, above the pubic bone
Mid-back pain where the kidneys are located
Fever or chills alternating with sweating
Blood in the urine

Advised all women experiencing any of these symptoms to see a doctor right away. UTIs are quickly diagnosed with a simple urine test so that treatment with antibiotics can start immediately. You should start feeling better within 24 hours.
Most importantly, early treatment of a UTI will prevent pyelonephritis. One over-the-counter medication that may help reduce the pain associated with UTIs is phenazopyridine (Uristat). While this medicine is somewhat effective, it should not take the place of treatment by a physician. Another caution: This drug turns the urine orange, and so will interfere with the rapid urine test mentioned above.
Here are some tips to help prevent recurrent UTIs:

Stay hydrated, especially when traveling. (Think of the kidneys-bladder-urethra pathway as a stream - the more water that flows along through it, the fewer leaves and other runoff will build up.)
Urinate regularly. This will help to prevent bacteria from hanging around.
Consider taking a daily cranberry supplement. You can do this either in the form of a pill with plenty of water or the juice itself. Cranberry really works because it prevents bacteria from attaching to the bladder wall.
Avoid caffeine. Caffeine may irritate the bladder.
Urinate before and after sexual intercourse.
Lubricate before sex. Invest more time in foreplay before intercourse or use a lubricant during sex to avoid irritating the urethra.
Stay regular. Constipation is a common cause of childhood UTIs and may contribute to a woman's risk of developing an infection. Constipation may also mean you are not taking in enough fluids

May all the above helps the women get rid of Urinary Infection.

YR' 2008 :"NEW Resolution!!!"

2008-01-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

Wanted to write myself a blog earlier...but I have no time to do...during leisure time I may not have mood to write myself a blog...

Well everyone was asking and most of them are throwing out the resolution of year 2008… When people asked about my new resolution, I have no idea with that at all hence I squeeze my head to think… finally I got it and the listing as shown as below:

1) Family stayed in pink of health, yeah~~~ wealthy is a must and most importantly stayed happily
2) Year 08, for myself may my career path as bright as stars all the time… new life begin with better path and it tight up to better lifestyle stayed happily all the time
3) My traveling trips to … if still on…
4) Get the machine with wheels
5) Financial independent and stable is a MUST because it can help me to achieve more for what I want
6)Keep improving… find the Balance of my life

Gonna start working on the plans before it’s getting late. There are some people trying to tell me that I’m still young and just relax but I just hardly relax myself. Found myself different with Bro and Sis, as when I was same age as them now I am quite independent.

"We are absolutely Different Version"

Besides, I would like to wish a frenz of mine good luck on the career path... May you can escape from the hell as soon as you can! Well, I am free now haha...

According to the lunar zodiac references, it's mentioned that Rat good to pair with Piggy, Dragon and Monkey... haha... and Bad to pair with Horse... But all this only can listen and not to trust all. Our future and our life is still very much depend on our hands.

“ 遗失的美好 ”

2007-08-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

也许事实已无法改变，时间也无法倒流

遗失而得不到，也许才是永远最美好的

从前的我以为自己明白 “遗失的美好 ” 到底是什么

现在我才真正领悟这句话真正的意思

人类总是在错误中慢慢的苏醒过来才发觉自己对事情感到后悔

感到遗憾这也就是代价

所以得不到才是永远最美好的回忆